Sorrow is better than laughter, for sadness has a refining influence on us.
Even as you are grieving, know that God is in the process of healing and reconstructing your heart :) There’s nothing that God would waste, not even your tears. Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy :)
Mourning is not disbelieving. Flooded eyes don’t represent a faithless heart. A person can enter a cemetry Jesus-certain of life after death and still have a Twin Tower crater in the heart. Christ did. He wept, and He knew He was 10 mins from seeing a living Lazarus! And His tears give you permission to shed your own. Grief does not mean you don’t trust; it simply means you can’t stand the thought of another day without the Jacob or Lazarus of your life. If Jesus gave the love, He understands the tears.